Within a couple of months after my last break up, I can't deny that I have changed a lot. It not a total change but still if you are the people who is around me and do knows my love stories then you definitely will ask me not to become the person I am now.
I am truly sorry for those people who I have hurt.
I do not mean to do it but then, like I said, I've changed.
At the beginning of our meetings no matter who you are, you knew that I can't give you my love.
I know that you are nice and sincere but then, I'm not the person who can be loyal to love anymore like I used to be.
I tried not to be the person I am now. However it just failed.
I do feel bad everytime seeing you all cry but what can I do?
You always ask, why I never say I LOVE YOU to you even once.
From my last break up, I've told myself saying that 3 magic words is not as easy as ABC to me.
Please give me more time to know the meaning of LOVE?
p/s:I'm still stuck with my taxation assignment. Why am I so not that brilliant in this subject
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Tipsy while working
Found out that if I had more than 6 hours for my sleep then I'll be darn sleepy during my working period. Last time I used to club till like god knows what time and by the time I reached home is already 4am and I'll just go to bed without taking a shower(you can categorize me as stinky) and I'll be awake at 7.30am for my work and surprisingly I'll be damn fresh till I end my work at 4pm. However, I'll sleep until the next morning once I reached home.
Today, like I said I slept about 7 hours the night before and I can't get myself up. Thanks to my violin teacher who always make me laugh early in the morning I had a great 'dim sum' breakfast which she packed for me and bro. THANKS ALOT JIE JIE!
She also provided me SHANDY! I drank it. Didn't know it will make me feel tipsy cause is only like 1% alcohol only but yet it did. Weird right for a person who is alcoholic like me. My students were like teacher I know why u look tired cause you drank shandy.
Anyways, I have decided to buy the NIKON 300s on Monday. I know you people might say I'm crazy or insane because I can go for vacation or buy an IMAC and Iphone together with this amount of money for this DSLR. I still choose to buy it no matter what.
Will welcome my baby this monday.
p/s: I'm done with the employment income tax but now I'm stuck with the self-employment. Nevermind I'll jump to my other assignment first will be back to it tomorrow after my work
Today, like I said I slept about 7 hours the night before and I can't get myself up. Thanks to my violin teacher who always make me laugh early in the morning I had a great 'dim sum' breakfast which she packed for me and bro. THANKS ALOT JIE JIE!
She also provided me SHANDY! I drank it. Didn't know it will make me feel tipsy cause is only like 1% alcohol only but yet it did. Weird right for a person who is alcoholic like me. My students were like teacher I know why u look tired cause you drank shandy.
Anyways, I have decided to buy the NIKON 300s on Monday. I know you people might say I'm crazy or insane because I can go for vacation or buy an IMAC and Iphone together with this amount of money for this DSLR. I still choose to buy it no matter what.
Will welcome my baby this monday.
p/s: I'm done with the employment income tax but now I'm stuck with the self-employment. Nevermind I'll jump to my other assignment first will be back to it tomorrow after my work
Friday, November 6, 2009
Nikon D300s or Canon 50D
Just came back from gym and went to survey on the cameras I want. Thank god I went for gym and it actually released my stress THANK GOD. Now I can avoid smoking that eventually really haunting me back again.
Back to this topic.
Went to FOTOKEM the place that I get all my cameras from.
Didn't know the usual guy who always serve me is the BOSS SON.
HAHA,
Now I know the reason why is he so young but choose to work there.
So this is the CANON 50D which I planned to buy which cost me RM5900 including the kit lens that is 18-200mm. Is a good bargain.
This is the newest nikon D300s which cost me RM5900 only for body. So I need a lens for it which is the 18-200 vr newest version
this one cost me RM2650 and I do need a flash for it, which is the SB-900,
it will add another RM1600 for it.
GOSH, whyla always the thing I want the price will increase. After adding everything for the NIKON camera it will cost me around RM8700. This is so out of my budget. I really love NIKON colour. The outcomes of photos are so brilliant!!!! Really so headache about it.
I do want to switch from CANON to NIKON. So sorry to all CANON supporters I really think NIKON colour is still the best.
For anyone out there if you see prices cheaper than this do inform me and must make sure the warranty is base in MALAYSIA K?
Back to this topic.
Went to FOTOKEM the place that I get all my cameras from.
Didn't know the usual guy who always serve me is the BOSS SON.
HAHA,
Now I know the reason why is he so young but choose to work there.
So this is the CANON 50D which I planned to buy which cost me RM5900 including the kit lens that is 18-200mm. Is a good bargain.This is the newest nikon D300s which cost me RM5900 only for body. So I need a lens for it which is the 18-200 vr newest versionthis one cost me RM2650 and I do need a flash for it, which is the SB-900,
it will add another RM1600 for it.
GOSH, whyla always the thing I want the price will increase. After adding everything for the NIKON camera it will cost me around RM8700. This is so out of my budget. I really love NIKON colour. The outcomes of photos are so brilliant!!!! Really so headache about it.
I do want to switch from CANON to NIKON. So sorry to all CANON supporters I really think NIKON colour is still the best.
For anyone out there if you see prices cheaper than this do inform me and must make sure the warranty is base in MALAYSIA K?
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Ways to let your future- IN LAWS to know you.
Have you ever watch those drams on how women drop any of her belongings in the guys car so that whoever who drives his car will realised that your boyfriend is dating with you?
YeAH you might encounter it. Especially for those guys who use family cars, girls love to leave her belongings there.
The common belongings that will be left inside the partner's car for attention are:
1. Earrings
2. Bra stripe
3. Lipsticks
4. Hair band
5. Hair clips
and others.
Today, I found the newest and most effective belonging to be left inside your partner's car is
.
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...
....
.....
......
.......
........
.........
YOUR IDENTITY CARD!
Yeah this is the most effective item because it will have your picture. If you have a nice appropriate face to show it gives good impression for your future-in laws. Then, got your date of birth which provides your in laws information for fortune-teller to predict whether are you suitable for her son. Moreover, it shows that you are a decent girl which you don't drop any of the above items especially BRA STRIPE. If you really left this thing inside the car then those in laws will think that you are those SLUT GIRLS! Furthermore, by leaving your identity card, your partner will purposely drive back to you and give you back since ID is the most important item and you will have the chance to meet him again.
So girls out there, this is the newest of all. Do try it out
YeAH you might encounter it. Especially for those guys who use family cars, girls love to leave her belongings there.
The common belongings that will be left inside the partner's car for attention are:
1. Earrings
2. Bra stripe
3. Lipsticks
4. Hair band
5. Hair clips
and others.
Today, I found the newest and most effective belonging to be left inside your partner's car is
.
..
...
....
.....
......
.......
........
.........
YOUR IDENTITY CARD!
Yeah this is the most effective item because it will have your picture. If you have a nice appropriate face to show it gives good impression for your future-in laws. Then, got your date of birth which provides your in laws information for fortune-teller to predict whether are you suitable for her son. Moreover, it shows that you are a decent girl which you don't drop any of the above items especially BRA STRIPE. If you really left this thing inside the car then those in laws will think that you are those SLUT GIRLS! Furthermore, by leaving your identity card, your partner will purposely drive back to you and give you back since ID is the most important item and you will have the chance to meet him again.
So girls out there, this is the newest of all. Do try it out
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
My hair mesmerized others.
I'm skipping my taxation lecture later this evening.
THANKS so much to that brilliant idiot in my house which came back at 3a.m and bringing his pathetic GF which stays at my house almost 7 days a week. God knows why she loves coming here and hide inside the room. If you are so in-wealthy enough to have your own bloody house which you always complain about how bad is our house is GO GET YOUR DAMN OWN HOUSE AND STOP THOSE SOUND POLLUTION IN THIS HOUSE! Darn you idiot. DO you know how to close the room door quietly everytime you're in home? You know you close the door like a DINOSAUR?
Due to your noisiness which you always make in the house I only had 3 hours of sleep yesterday and please bear this in your mind that I still need to attend morning classes and I need full energy to last till evening class. I'm not like you having all those indulgences from dad and mum k? Me and fat bro need to work our asses off to earn our future livings. SO AS A SO CALL-ED RESPONSIBLE ELDEST SIBLING, PLEASE BE TOLERATE K?
Skipped today's class due to my tiredness. Did not managed to recharge my energy to the maximum level and now all cars in my house are occupied so I can't go to my college again ( I came back home after my first class to recharge my energy).
Anyways back to today's topic.
was heading to the toilet during my break and I bumped into my 1st year lecturer. She's a sweet and nice lecturer. Really hope she's one of my 3rd year lecturers but then she said she's not capable enough to teach 3rd year. When she saw me she was like
'HI,you changed your hairstyle again? nice one!' (she always talks about my hair in my 1st year)
I was like:
'ERRR, yeah but now is kind of long so need to cut it soon after assignments due'.
Then she asked more.
'You can style your hair like this everyday, does it takes up lots of time to do it?'
I was like stunned cause normally lecturers don't talk about this to students but then maybe she's cool.
'Not really, I';m used to it. It only takes up like 5 minutes or less'.
Then she was like.
'Can I touch it? Is it hard or soft?'
I was like .........
'Yeah sure, is soft it needs practices to make the outer part to look hard but it feels soft'.
GOsh I sounded like so professional man.
She knew that I'm working as a music teacher then she asked me do my students like my hair and I said yes even my own students do give compliment to me but for those small kids they will say my hair look like lion's hair. You know kids nowadays are still young they don't understand the ACT OF HAIR! hahaha
Later on she kind of cuddle my arm and pull me out. She brought me to the bulletin board and show me how she looks when she was late twenties. WOAH! She does changed alot. She used to have those goody boy hair cut on her head. Oh ya she's having long hair now like those girlish lecturer. Seriously she made my heart laughed when she told me she wanted my hairstyle. However, I told her she looks pretty and sweet with her current hairstyle. She cut her hair shorter for this year and yes she does look younger. It was shocked that she told me that she's going to be in forties. For me, MS you always look like early thirties and you're one of the nicest tutors I ever had.
Perhaps my hair really mesmerized others. Even when I go back to my highschool for documents certification, most of my teachers will be like WOAH! You look like those Taiwanese, Japanese and Korean guy actors style. I'M SO HAPPY!! hAHAAHA.
Might be changing my hairstyle again for my 3rd year. Prefer to change my hair style every year of my degree as to give me a fresh start every year. Still remembered that my 1st year I used to have those long short style which makes me look polite but for this year I shaved my left side and looks quite violent. After my examination will think about my 3rd year degree style.
One assignment down, 2 more to go. Going to struggle with taxation assignment
THANKS so much to that brilliant idiot in my house which came back at 3a.m and bringing his pathetic GF which stays at my house almost 7 days a week. God knows why she loves coming here and hide inside the room. If you are so in-wealthy enough to have your own bloody house which you always complain about how bad is our house is GO GET YOUR DAMN OWN HOUSE AND STOP THOSE SOUND POLLUTION IN THIS HOUSE! Darn you idiot. DO you know how to close the room door quietly everytime you're in home? You know you close the door like a DINOSAUR?
Due to your noisiness which you always make in the house I only had 3 hours of sleep yesterday and please bear this in your mind that I still need to attend morning classes and I need full energy to last till evening class. I'm not like you having all those indulgences from dad and mum k? Me and fat bro need to work our asses off to earn our future livings. SO AS A SO CALL-ED RESPONSIBLE ELDEST SIBLING, PLEASE BE TOLERATE K?
Skipped today's class due to my tiredness. Did not managed to recharge my energy to the maximum level and now all cars in my house are occupied so I can't go to my college again ( I came back home after my first class to recharge my energy).
Anyways back to today's topic.
was heading to the toilet during my break and I bumped into my 1st year lecturer. She's a sweet and nice lecturer. Really hope she's one of my 3rd year lecturers but then she said she's not capable enough to teach 3rd year. When she saw me she was like
'HI,you changed your hairstyle again? nice one!' (she always talks about my hair in my 1st year)
I was like:
'ERRR, yeah but now is kind of long so need to cut it soon after assignments due'.
Then she asked more.
'You can style your hair like this everyday, does it takes up lots of time to do it?'
I was like stunned cause normally lecturers don't talk about this to students but then maybe she's cool.
'Not really, I';m used to it. It only takes up like 5 minutes or less'.
Then she was like.
'Can I touch it? Is it hard or soft?'
I was like .........
'Yeah sure, is soft it needs practices to make the outer part to look hard but it feels soft'.
GOsh I sounded like so professional man.
She knew that I'm working as a music teacher then she asked me do my students like my hair and I said yes even my own students do give compliment to me but for those small kids they will say my hair look like lion's hair. You know kids nowadays are still young they don't understand the ACT OF HAIR! hahaha
Later on she kind of cuddle my arm and pull me out. She brought me to the bulletin board and show me how she looks when she was late twenties. WOAH! She does changed alot. She used to have those goody boy hair cut on her head. Oh ya she's having long hair now like those girlish lecturer. Seriously she made my heart laughed when she told me she wanted my hairstyle. However, I told her she looks pretty and sweet with her current hairstyle. She cut her hair shorter for this year and yes she does look younger. It was shocked that she told me that she's going to be in forties. For me, MS you always look like early thirties and you're one of the nicest tutors I ever had.
Perhaps my hair really mesmerized others. Even when I go back to my highschool for documents certification, most of my teachers will be like WOAH! You look like those Taiwanese, Japanese and Korean guy actors style. I'M SO HAPPY!! hAHAAHA.
Might be changing my hairstyle again for my 3rd year. Prefer to change my hair style every year of my degree as to give me a fresh start every year. Still remembered that my 1st year I used to have those long short style which makes me look polite but for this year I shaved my left side and looks quite violent. After my examination will think about my 3rd year degree style.
One assignment down, 2 more to go. Going to struggle with taxation assignment
What we missed in our life since the day we left our childhood world
Went to college today. Slept till 12pm only wake up. Need to keep my energy for my taxation class in the evening. SERIOUSLY, I'm such an idiot with TAX! I just can't blend with it no matter what. Yet thanks to CAROLINE and AMERY, both of them are so sweet. They motivated me to keep my focus. THANKS GIRLS!
So we went to mamak while waiting for our lecture, suddenly we popped up with MATTEL company which is the company that produces board games, UNO CARD and etc.
Let's go into our childhood world again.
Have you guys ever wonder how much fun we had with these games. Yeah some people now in our age might think that is childish but think about it? If we really organise games like this I bet we will start acting like kids shouting and laughing here and there.
I remembered I used to play these games in school such as MONOPOLY, UNo cards(damn famous la wei), batu scrabbles, pictionary and others. We will always fight among each other to get a seat for it since some of the games had limited players. We enjoyed ourselves so much even though we get mad after losing the game. I'm always the cheater whenever I play games (my nature).
Other than this, I love LEGO alot until I wish to become CEO of LEGO COMPANY. I was young that time k? I didn't know that CEO needs tons of qualification and hard work and since I've grown up, I'll just let go this dream. Talking about LEGO, I'm planning to forge apart of my monthly salary to build up a room that is full of LEGO. I want to build landscape,business industries, housing area, shopping complex and others with LEGO BRICKS. It might sound childish for you guys but WHO CARES! This is what I like the most and I want to do it. Still remember how annoying am I to my fat bro asking him to build this and that for me with our LEGO BRICKS when we were young. I was young and stupid and not creative enough to build all those building and my brother was so expert in these stuffs. I WANT TO GO BACK TO MY CHILDHOOD WORLD!!
These are some of favourite theme that I'll be building it in future:
Stadium style.
Detroit City
Police Station.
So do look forward for my future house, you surely can see a huge room which is full of LEGO BRICKS (This will take me years to fulfill my dream).
p/s:to my rich friends out there or anyone who wants do donate LEGO you are most welcome to donate it to me hahahaha!
So we went to mamak while waiting for our lecture, suddenly we popped up with MATTEL company which is the company that produces board games, UNO CARD and etc.
Let's go into our childhood world again.
Have you guys ever wonder how much fun we had with these games. Yeah some people now in our age might think that is childish but think about it? If we really organise games like this I bet we will start acting like kids shouting and laughing here and there.
I remembered I used to play these games in school such as MONOPOLY, UNo cards(damn famous la wei), batu scrabbles, pictionary and others. We will always fight among each other to get a seat for it since some of the games had limited players. We enjoyed ourselves so much even though we get mad after losing the game. I'm always the cheater whenever I play games (my nature).
Other than this, I love LEGO alot until I wish to become CEO of LEGO COMPANY. I was young that time k? I didn't know that CEO needs tons of qualification and hard work and since I've grown up, I'll just let go this dream. Talking about LEGO, I'm planning to forge apart of my monthly salary to build up a room that is full of LEGO. I want to build landscape,business industries, housing area, shopping complex and others with LEGO BRICKS. It might sound childish for you guys but WHO CARES! This is what I like the most and I want to do it. Still remember how annoying am I to my fat bro asking him to build this and that for me with our LEGO BRICKS when we were young. I was young and stupid and not creative enough to build all those building and my brother was so expert in these stuffs. I WANT TO GO BACK TO MY CHILDHOOD WORLD!!
These are some of favourite theme that I'll be building it in future:
Stadium style.Detroit CityPolice Station.So do look forward for my future house, you surely can see a huge room which is full of LEGO BRICKS (This will take me years to fulfill my dream).
p/s:to my rich friends out there or anyone who wants do donate LEGO you are most welcome to donate it to me hahahaha!
Monday, November 2, 2009
The ways to prevent others from snatching away your BF!
Many girls out there want to keep their boyfriend by their side each and every minute and commonly the only way to keep them is by using 'SEX'!
'SEX' is what mesmerize guys to the optimum level.
They will do anything just to get it.
Guys stop pretend to be innocent because even an innocent guy, he will still have the desire to want it. Normally guys will attend to approach other girls if they can't get it from their own GF so this is actually quite a dangerous incident to lose your BF to the other partner.
Yet, 'VIRGINITY' is vital to every girl. Not all girls are willing to give in easily because girls have deeper emotional compared to guys. Once a girl give in her virginity, she will feel that a personal part of her body is being explored by someone and guys will just feel 'NAH IS JUST SEX, NOTHING BIG DEAL!'
GUYS!
You all are totally WRONG!
Sex is very important to girls k?
So if you girls out there want to preserve your boyfriend from searching others for sex, these are some ways to be taking without giving in your virginity. (kononnya sangat expert!)
No1:
Always make your partner feel that you are mysterious. It is important to make yourself mysterious not in a way of hard to understand but in way that it is not easy to explore your feelings. You must make the guys wants to understand you more. PLEASE DON'T DO ALL THOSE BITCHY STYLE because guys will think you are pathetic and want to 'JUAL MAHAL'.
No2:
Yeah guys want SEX but you can eventually provide them imaginary sex to fulfill their desire. It is good to let guys feel that it is not easy to let you give in. You can't be too sensitive by not letting your boyfriend to touch you physically(I do not mean your private part). It is okay to let guys to cuddle or touch around your face. If you don't allow it, guys will feel pissed off and will find others for comfort. Do not ever say 'HEY DON'T TOUCH ME LA, PERIOD LA WEI!'
This is a very bad move, why must you let period bothers you? I mean fine period is irritating. However, you can use a polite way to say that you're not feeling well and need some comfort which will automatic made the guys understand your pain and he will concern you more in the right way.
No3:
Do not seduce your partner to the maximum level as in taking off your inner clothing. By doing this, it will make you look CHEAPPY! If a guy thinks that you are cheap it makes you not worth to be with. In a relationship it is vital for you to let your partner feels that you are a worthy person. If you are dating with a younger person than it will be another story. Younger guys tend to be not that fast in maturing compared to women. It is very rare that younger guys take relationship serious unless that they are born as GOODY BOY! Always seduce your partner in a proper way as in like giving chicky kisses at his lips. It is good to always play tricky kisses with your partners. Yeah you might think is childish but then it might light up the relationship between both of you. Its fun!
No:4
Do not interfere your boyfriend's problem. Boys which we categorized them as MALE have EGOS! It is good to give space for them to breath like a man. If you always interfere this and that it makes you look like KEPOCI which means BUSYBODY and it will make your partner feel burdened.
No:5
Do not ever go out with his friends unless he knows about it. It is common that other relationship might happen between his friends and you. Normally you boyfriend will just keep quiet because they do not like to show jealousy or maybe because they are into brotherhood with his friends. So when one day he realised that his friends are better than him then he might just walked away to fulfill both of you.
No:6
Always cares about your partner's feeling. It is true that guys are strong but deep inside their heart they are little boy. They still need someone to comfort them once a while because they always have more problems at work. If there's not comforts from you then he will search it from others.
Lastly do trust your partner though is hard to do it especially for those who feel insecure with your partners. However, it is better to try your best to trust him if you love him.
p/s: above are just a random post. no theory has prove that these steps are effective
'SEX' is what mesmerize guys to the optimum level.
They will do anything just to get it.
Guys stop pretend to be innocent because even an innocent guy, he will still have the desire to want it. Normally guys will attend to approach other girls if they can't get it from their own GF so this is actually quite a dangerous incident to lose your BF to the other partner.
Yet, 'VIRGINITY' is vital to every girl. Not all girls are willing to give in easily because girls have deeper emotional compared to guys. Once a girl give in her virginity, she will feel that a personal part of her body is being explored by someone and guys will just feel 'NAH IS JUST SEX, NOTHING BIG DEAL!'
GUYS!
You all are totally WRONG!
Sex is very important to girls k?
So if you girls out there want to preserve your boyfriend from searching others for sex, these are some ways to be taking without giving in your virginity. (kononnya sangat expert!)
No1:
Always make your partner feel that you are mysterious. It is important to make yourself mysterious not in a way of hard to understand but in way that it is not easy to explore your feelings. You must make the guys wants to understand you more. PLEASE DON'T DO ALL THOSE BITCHY STYLE because guys will think you are pathetic and want to 'JUAL MAHAL'.
No2:
Yeah guys want SEX but you can eventually provide them imaginary sex to fulfill their desire. It is good to let guys feel that it is not easy to let you give in. You can't be too sensitive by not letting your boyfriend to touch you physically(I do not mean your private part). It is okay to let guys to cuddle or touch around your face. If you don't allow it, guys will feel pissed off and will find others for comfort. Do not ever say 'HEY DON'T TOUCH ME LA, PERIOD LA WEI!'
This is a very bad move, why must you let period bothers you? I mean fine period is irritating. However, you can use a polite way to say that you're not feeling well and need some comfort which will automatic made the guys understand your pain and he will concern you more in the right way.
No3:
Do not seduce your partner to the maximum level as in taking off your inner clothing. By doing this, it will make you look CHEAPPY! If a guy thinks that you are cheap it makes you not worth to be with. In a relationship it is vital for you to let your partner feels that you are a worthy person. If you are dating with a younger person than it will be another story. Younger guys tend to be not that fast in maturing compared to women. It is very rare that younger guys take relationship serious unless that they are born as GOODY BOY! Always seduce your partner in a proper way as in like giving chicky kisses at his lips. It is good to always play tricky kisses with your partners. Yeah you might think is childish but then it might light up the relationship between both of you. Its fun!
No:4
Do not interfere your boyfriend's problem. Boys which we categorized them as MALE have EGOS! It is good to give space for them to breath like a man. If you always interfere this and that it makes you look like KEPOCI which means BUSYBODY and it will make your partner feel burdened.
No:5
Do not ever go out with his friends unless he knows about it. It is common that other relationship might happen between his friends and you. Normally you boyfriend will just keep quiet because they do not like to show jealousy or maybe because they are into brotherhood with his friends. So when one day he realised that his friends are better than him then he might just walked away to fulfill both of you.
No:6
Always cares about your partner's feeling. It is true that guys are strong but deep inside their heart they are little boy. They still need someone to comfort them once a while because they always have more problems at work. If there's not comforts from you then he will search it from others.
Lastly do trust your partner though is hard to do it especially for those who feel insecure with your partners. However, it is better to try your best to trust him if you love him.
p/s: above are just a random post. no theory has prove that these steps are effective
